Holy crap we are having a baby!

Written May 19^th 2014 (3 weeks and 5 days pregnant apparently)

I am still having a hard time believing it, I am pregnant. We literally started trying May 2^nd 2014, after book club, I may have been tipsy. I was shocked that Mike wanted to try so soon, I have always said I would respect his wishes for awhile if he wanted to wait, he then respected mine and we got to trying. Trying for a baby is F.U.N, like really fun, and so different, it has an amazing loving purpose. I was using my “Glow” app and it tells you when you are fertile, so we took full advantage of our fertility. 

Right away I noticed a few things, my hair is stupidly soft, like my cat Lucy’s fur, amazingly soft, and its not falling out as much. I also got nauseous cleaning the bathroom, which never happens AND dumping out wine (also something that never happens). I told my friend Kristi about these things and said I must want a baby so bad that I am subconsciously creating symptoms…I couldn't have them already! Kristi said hormones were hormones, and to tell her when I took a test. 

So I waited, and then started worrying that when I took a test and it was negative I would be so sad, and then I decided to start taking tests way before my period when I knew it would be negative to desensitize myself to the lack of a second line. So I did, Thursday it was negative, Friday morning I took another….brought it to Mike and asked if I was crazy, he saw the lines too so we decided to test again tomorrow, same thing Saturday, so Sunday we decided to use the drugstore test (our friends gave us bulk tests that they bought online that we had used before). I peed on the stick, and after three minutes it had an x on it, I brought it to Mike and he just smiled, I praised him for being so efficient and asked if he was surprised. Mike noted that he always had faith in his sperm (Men). Then we went back to sleep, cause this was at 5 am (Little Gizmo is an early riser, much to mommies dismay). I laid in bed in joyous shock, infertility has always been a fear of mine, like cold sweats kind of fear, so for it to happen so fast felt to me like God saying “relax daughter, I have this”. I was so grateful that I am type A by nature and tend to over plan everything. This mean that the second we had “trying sex” not a drop of alcohol entered my system, caffeine was limited, pain killers were not taken (I now take Tylenol for bad headaches that may turn into migraines), pre-natal’s and omegas were taken and I tried to eat healthy (and failed mostly, damn wedding candy bar leftovers).

I am trying not to be too crazy, but am honestly worried that if I jog I will bounce Gizmo right out, Kristi and my pregnancy books tell me I am wrong so I jogged. I have told a few friends, just so they can keep me on track and make sure I don’t loose my mind.

Mike really wants to wait to tell the majority of people, I agree, if something happens I don’t want to have to re-tell people. However I am a horrible liar, a friend asked today if I was pregnant and I got a huge grin and tried to look away, I am hopeless. Mike thinks I should just say that we are “trying to have a baby” which is true except one is already growing, but we may need to practice cause I still feel that’s a lie. I am hoping not many people ask, I don’t want to make Mike crazy.

Dear Gizmo, I am so in love with you already. I find myself touching my belly and praying for you many times a day! I pray that you stay with me, that you keep growing and developing and that I get to meet you in January/February next year. Your daddy is pretty smitten too, he’s planning to put extra insulation above your room and lay carpet in your room so you will be nice and warm! Love you little one.

<3 Mommy. 

I am so tired all the time :)

I like being creative, crafty, efficient. I always thought that I would have an adorable idea to announce my pregnancy... Has anyone told you that babies steal your brain? They do, and your energy and efficiency. I am not one to rest however, so I think the exhaustion is a good thing, it makes me relax and focus on growing a human, which is way more important than checking off the items on my list.

I am told that it will get better soon, energy wise at least, here is hoping. Otherwise this little bean will have a fully store bought nursery and crib set, maybe just a knitted blanket. This seems sad to me since I have delighted in creating baby items for everyone else's little one... Perhaps I will have more spunk and creativity when we know if we are having a boy or a girl. Here is hoping!

So we are expectant parents, in the second trimester and we had the ultrasound last week (how amazing is that?!) babe is due late January 2015 and we are beyond excited! Also shocked that it happened so fast, feeling pretty blessed these days for sure :)

I have been creating blog posts occasionally since we found out, so I will post those soon so y'all can hear my random ramblings about baby and pregnancy.

YAY!

<3 Kass and baby "Taco" as Mike lovingly refers to it...

Crafting for baby Tigg!

I know I always say "This is my favorite quilt that I have made", but I fully mean it this time! My amazing brother and his lovely girlfriend (who is practically another sister since she grew up with my sister) are expecting their first babe in the next month or so; Clearly that meant I needed to make another quilt, and this was the finished product!

So cute right! I LOVE LOVE LOVE it! Its actually a simple design, but the fabric is darling! 

Not I am making tiny hats for three tiny precious babes that our lovely friends recently welcomed into the world...so behind...knitting like crazy...my "tiny" hats would still be way to big so I am not feeling super bad...yet. 

Yay for babies! 

Oh, and an update on my spending, I have been pretty good, bought a few things at dollar stores but just what I needed (night light, batteries, hat) and have not gone into any kitchy stores, I have purchased books and some buy sell items but I am doing pretty well with not spending all my spending money right after payday...going to call it a win :) 

<3 Kass

Book review; Women Food and God by Geneen Roth

This wonderful books is our book club selection this month. I was excited to start reading it, cause really, I am a woman who loves food and God, so...total fit :) I must admit that I do struggle to get through these kinds of books (probably doesn't help that I am reading every pregnancy and conception etc book I can get my obsessed little hands on just IN CASE we are preggo). At times I would drift off, but I have cut back on caffeine, again, just in case.

I loved the message of this book, and not just towards eating. It talks a lot about our inner voice and the negative things it says (if you could hear what mine said while looking through wedding pictures you would likely smack me). And just really acknowledging what it is saying, realising that it has no control over your present life, which then takes it's power away and lets you move forward and be present in your life instead of being stuck in the past. When you are present you can pay attention to why you are eating again when you aren't hungry, or shopping, or doing something else. You can question what you are trying to ignore, painful feelings, your past etc and then take steps to acknowledge and address those feelings. These feelings and the desire to numb them are really why we over (anything really). Interesting stuff.

What are y'all reading?
<3 Kass

In preparation for things to come!

Wow I have not blogged in what feels like (and really was) forever! Mike and I were married a few weeks ago and married life is just blissful! I think its so different than just living together, there is a security in knowing I am his and he is mine, period forever. I just love it. 

First comes marriage and then comes...hopefully babies, which leads me to thinking about setting some goals so that we can eventually have a mat leave that is not at all plagued with stress about money. Mike would like us each to save up $5000 before babe comes, and its totally doable, but I need to stop shopping, like yesterday. I am so bad, I drive all over the city for work and end up early to meetings (I am pathologically early, except apparently on our wedding day, when I was late (5 minutes, but it made me crazy). Because I am early I go to shops and look around and buy cute things...daily, its pretty silly. 

I have made a goal for next week, my goal is to spend as little money as possible, I have already approved a tank of gas, and ONE lunch out with my friend E, that's it...I will pack all other snacks/lunches/drinks. I will bring a book/knitting to work on if I am early to meetings, I will go to the gym rather than shopping. I. Will. Not. Shop! Next week should be easy as we have a ton of groceries, we may need milk and maybe some cat food and that's okay but just what we need will be purchased (Mike should really do the picking up of little things...I end up grocery shopping like a boss and filling our fridge). 

I feel that putting this out in the universe to all my friends in family is a great way to keep my tiny little spending machine behind accountable, feel free to call me on it if you see me shopping, seriously I'm not joking :) 

Do you guys have any goals that you would like to work on? 

I am reading the book "Women food and God" for book club, it just occurred to me that where others eat I think I shop and justify it by saying its at dollarramma and on the buysell and thrift shops and is "such a good deal". In some cases I am totally right, but I know money stresses out Mike, and to honor my husband I am going to try to kick this little habit ! (at least cut it in half...)

CHALLENGE ACCEPTED

Can y'all see Mike dancing with joy in the corner? He will LOVE this new goal I think :) 

<3 Kass

Crafting for my nephew :)

I haven't been blogging lately...my nana broke her hip so being there for her and helping out my Aunty as much as possibly has taken over my life. I haven't even been reading or knitting very much lately. HOWEVER, my sister is due in May AND lives in Missouri (where my mama is going this week) so I had a time limit to getting crafting done for baby Aiden. I am thankfully all done with a few days to prepare :) Here is what I made!

 Crib sheets! Actually quite easy to make, I will make these again for sure. If you want a tutorial go to This blog :)

 I also made a crib skirt...I don't have a crib here so I will have to get my sister to send me pictures when she     puts this on the crib! So excited to see it!

                               Isn't the quilt cute?! I love it!

What a nice stack of love :) 

Hope y'all are having an amazing start to spring :)
<3 Kass

More baby crafting... surprise :)

Remember the monkey I made? I was waiting for the beautiful babe to be born so I would know what color bow to make (and where to put it)! Well that little love as born (a girl) and I obviously needed to then make a quilt with pretty girly fabric...obviously :) 

Here is monkey with her bow :) SO CUTE

                        I just love the look of freshly cut fabric :) Makes me Happy, Happy, Happy.

                    So precious!!!! I just love little Brynn and the cute crafting that I got to do for her :)